Hello. This is a little personal, but I'll just talk about it briefly.
I noticed that I couldn't handle criticism well. I don't have a thick enough skin that if my work gets critiqued, my heart shatters into a million pieces. I'm told to not take it personally, but I couldn't really help it. Maybe it's about changing my own mindset, but how long will that take? I guess there's so much wrong with me that it's hard to fix them all, let alone within my lifetime. Maybe it's easier to let go and become complacent with who I am.
Maybe it shouldn't really matter. I'm human after all. There are so many great human beings out there, young and old. I wish I'm one of them.
I wish I have a better vocabulary to express what I feel, but I could only express them through drawing. That doesn't count, i guess.
For now, staying quiet and being somewhat unknown to everyone would ease my soul a little. I just wish that I have the energy to move on a little more and not hold on whatever faults I did in the past. It's hard to let go.
-J.V