I tried doing something new in the Valentine artwork (the second pic). You can see the line art style is different from the others. I was looking at the line art of Witch Hat Atelier by Kanome Shirahama, and I was incorporating that kind of style to my own. I realized that it kind of conflicts with how I render, so I went back to my usual line art style and tried to build from there with the experience that I got from studying the manga.

The Valentines pic was done before the Mei Hatsume and Hex Maniac pic. I think you can see some of its influence go into my later drawings, but it's minimal.

I just like drawing lines.

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Hello again, I just want to say one more thing.

I want to create a story about a character who couldn't fit into society because she's a "monster." Themes are more about how your extraordinary talents would destroy relationships unintentionally, how to push through so much trauma through your life (that the average person would rather die if they were to go through something like that), and being able to move on in general.

I don't know, it's something that's on my mind.

I'll post more about it later.

-J.V

Hello. This is a little personal, but I'll just talk about it briefly.

I noticed that I couldn't handle criticism well. I don't have a thick enough skin that if my work gets critiqued, my heart shatters into a million pieces. I'm told to not take it personally, but I couldn't really help it. Maybe it's about changing my own mindset, but how long will that take? I guess there's so much wrong with me that it's hard to fix them all, let alone within my lifetime. Maybe it's easier to let go and become complacent with who I am.

Maybe it shouldn't really matter. I'm human after all. There are so many great human beings out there, young and old. I wish I'm one of them.

I wish I have a better vocabulary to express what I feel, but I could only express them through drawing. That doesn't count, i guess.

For now, staying quiet and being somewhat unknown to everyone would ease my soul a little. I just wish that I have the energy to move on a little more and not hold on whatever faults I did in the past. It's hard to let go.

-J.V

Oh yeah. It's 2020. We have hopeful wishes at the end of 2019, but instead we have WW3 in our hands. Amazing.

Anyways, I'm looking forward to it. I don't have any New Years Resolutions planned out because I know that I'm not going to accomplish them. But, there is one goal that I want to accomplish: A bit more originality.

In the last few years, I've been drawing fanart for some time. Nothing bad with it, but it's not entirely my own kind of... thing. You know? I'm currently looking at Japanese folklore to draw inspiration from or anything of the sorts. Maybe something that I can publish in an art book or sketchbook?

Regardless, I'm looking forward to 2020. Have a good one.

Oh, and don't get drafted.

I should be more comfortable being able to post more, regardless of the artwork being bad or not. Maybe I should have this as a New Years Resolution thing, but I should make it become a habit. Maybe that will help.